Time flies!

 Deep breath!

its been for so long long and long period havent spill out all here!

9 years pass through already peeps! before get married and now im back as Mama to three cutest, cranky (all the time) & cheeky to The Andras! But for sure, me marry to Teja! 

Dear Future Husband

Dear future husband,
Here's a few things
You'll need to know if you wanna be
My one and only all my life

Take me on a date
I deserve a break
And don't forget the flowers every anniversary
'Cause if you'll treat me right
I'll be the perfect wife
Buying groceries
Buy-buying what you need

You got that 9 to 5
But, baby, so do I
So don't be thinking I'll be home and baking apple pies
I never learned to cook
But I can find a hook
Sing along with me
Sing-sing along with me (hey)

You gotta know how to treat me like a lady
Even when I'm acting crazy
Tell me everything's alright

Dear future husband,
Here's a few things you'll need to know if you want to be
My one and only all my life
Dear future husband,
If you wanna get that special lovin'
Tell me I'm beautiful each and every night

After every fight
Just apologize
And maybe then I'll let you try and rock my body right
Even if I was wrong
You know I'm never wrong
Why disagree?
Why, why disagree?

You gotta know how to treat me like a lady
Even when I'm acting crazy
Tell me everything's alright

Dear future husband,
Here's a few things
You'll need to know if you want to be
My one and only all my life (hey, baby)
Dear future husband,
Make time for me
Don't leave me lonely
And know we'll never see your family more than mine

I'll be sleeping on the left side of the bed (hey)
Open doors for me and you might get some kisses
Don't have a dirty mind
Just be a classy guy
Buy me a ring
Buy-buy me a ring, babe

You gotta know how to treat me like a lady
Even when I'm acting crazy
Tell me everything's alright

Dear future husband,
Here's a few things
You'll need to know if you want to be
My one and only all my life
Dear future husband,
If you wanna get that special loving
Tell me I'm beautiful each and every night

Future husband, better love me right

P/S : Love youu to the moon and back Mr.Muncet Incik Kambenggggg TEJA !

this coming Friday i've an interview @ Jasin,Malacca..may Allah ease everythingg...aminnn

Blank

Shineeeeeeeee....
bpe lame x hupdateeeee
cuba kira kan jup!
damn buzy...like shit!
seriously i feels like..nothing!
stress nyaa kerjaa..sumpah!
rasa mcm xmau kerja QS dahh...
sakit pale...migrain..sumaa adaa...

kerja makin bertambahh...staff QS dok dua org tue jugakkkkkk...
ingat kita robot apee...
bek la keja yg pnat badan dr penat otak...pnat bdn balik umah tido lena!

hurmmm arini pepagi da stress...
dpt msg dy pun buat stress jugakk...
hurmm..sedih gilaa rasaa..
kalau setiap bulan cmnie...
masa bila nya nak cukup...

hurmm down sgt...nie pun nak gunaaaa word SERIOUSLY...
tapi nak kata apa dahh...redha dlm terpaksa laa...susahh nyaa...

redha redha redhaa je laaaa
ikhlas ke tak..tue x tau nk jwb...
tgok drama tv3 nie pun stress jugak..

pokoknya cerita hari ini semuanya pasal stress je laa...let it go..let it goo...tetibe rasa cam nk nangis sambil nyanyi lagu cter katon Frozen..even pg td bwak sheapy pun kua air mata..
syahdu sgguh rasaaaa...

da laa..cter byk pun ade ke tidak la org bacee...bye!

p/s : tengok tokpah & tokwan agy syiokkk...perfecto!

Queen & King

hurmmm lame gler x hupppdateeee...
Allah haii..rindu sungguh Queen & King dekat kampungggg...
cepatlah bulan 7...raya raya raya!
nak balekkkkk...
stiap hari kol pun x ilang rindu g...
huuuiiiiiii...sungguh hai tak tipu!

aku rase kann aku mcm da dpt migrain lah! (lari topic)..
since keje bidang ni..sakit kepala x engatttt...oh my my my...

alangkah indahnya ada kedai kek sniriiii...hurmmm...mls sgguh! sungguh!

lately otak aku x kreatif la nk mengarang esei daa..stiap ari tgok angka jaaa...choiiiii...duit sniri takpe gak kan! bosssss...nk cuti smgu pliss...
nk balik kampungggggggggggggg

p/s: bila org amik berat x menghargai..bila org x layan..sibuk ja cari..rimassssss...meowww (nyampah!)

its hurt..deeply !

kenkadang bila cakap x fikir then minta maaf...
senang je fikir org lain bley terima dengan mudah..
kalau ckp dengan bahasa yg common x apala juga..
boleh terima juga kalau minta maaf..
nie kalau dah kuar segala bagai ayat kasar...
then minta maaf...hurmmmmm mcm mana..??

hurmm..kat tempat keje lagi...
mmg dah nama kontraktor gaya bahasa pun kasar juga..
tapi kalau setakat aku kau...kau aku (even aku tak suka!)
at least ok la gak...hurm hurmm

nie kalau smpy mase depan nk ckp nyesal bagai..
padahal x tahu pun ape jadi kat masa akan datang..
kita hormat org, tapi org yg x hormat kita..
kita x ckp kasar org yg ckp kasar...
semua serba x kena..

kadang2 terpikir juga..
family kita x ada pun ckp kasar2..
the bila jumpa org yg ckp kasar..
sometime x boleh nak terima..
otak pun x dpt proses ayat tue...

hurm hurm hurmmm
*(bnyk sungguh mengeluh dari semalam!)
bila diam kata kurang ajar..
bila lawan pun kata kurang ajar juga..
padahal niat kita diam tue xnk teruk kan situasi..
susah laaaaa....family kita pun x ckp mcm tue...

kalau boleh bnyk nak type..
tp kalau type pun point dy same gak..
serupa jep kan..

smpy cnie jelaa...
x sabar nak tgu tokpah smpy ahad nie..
bnyk bende nak ngadu kat tokpah..
rindu ! rindu nak ngadu kat walid gak...

hurmm x apalah...
mata berair dah nie woiii...
kang nges plak kat opis..
suara pun da semcm...

hurmmm untuk ke seratus kali..

p/s : x sangka end of this month dah setengah tahun aku kerja..
cepatnya masa berlalu ! hurmm untuk 6th April 2014 pun..
mcm dah x excited tgu date tue..dah terbang sume perasaan excited semalam :'(

blog berhabukkkkkk

woiiiiii
lame gler x update blog !
(aku kat tempat keje nie woiiiiii)
tup tup dah almost 5 months have been employed here..
gler cepat mase berlalu...
and lately kepala gua asek saket je..
mybe sebab asek ngadap EXCEL je wat keje..
lelame gua rase gua kena pky spec..
even gua rase gua suke pky spec utk fesyen..
but untuk rabun..NO WAY okayyyyy
(mybe lens can be consider..HAHA)

other things??
hurmmm ibu(mak cik gua doe!) sakittttt
guys ! please pray for her to recover ASAP..
aminnnnnnnnnn

tok wan tok pah ade sini..
but esok dah nak balikkkk
huwarghhhhhh...nanti rindu balik !
nak ikut balik kampunggggg...
plishh plishhhhhh

ok tue je nak update...
still have plenty of work to carried out !
till me meet again...bye !

p/s : rindu encik teja si kambing busuk sayaaaa
       so far, kerja sume ok, office mate ok..bos pun ok...
       saya suka kerja saya even kenkadang stresssss...heee

suprising me!

kite ingat tak dapat mende alahh niee
previous post entri kite cdey...
arini post senyumm...
dpt ugakkk...dy memaen kn perasaan kite!
niee kalu Mr.Love bace mau kena pelangkung..
heee...pape pun mekaseh!
syg awak +++++++ auwww

kite owang date g National Monument...

skema dakk kamiii..??ampa tak ada kannn

having subway and hoobit movie!

heeeeee

tadaaaaaa...
adiah bday kite awitu on 2nd Dec...
the little pillow wif my name on it from my beloved cousin..
and ipod from love...dgr lagu sampai tido ok !
dy saje jepppp tau bagi kite nangis ! huhhhh
sorry awak kite xnk delete previous entri..
hehe...
pape pun mekaseh !
kite sukeeee due-due sebab kale peberet kite purple ! :)

dah tue je..bye !

p/s: bos xde 2 minggu..yeay ! tapi kerja tetap banyak okeeeeee :'(

terkilan

kite sedih tau awakkkk
eh jup jup...
bukan sedih tapi terkilan...
emm sedihh cket laaa...
bru kite excited nanak mende tuee
tp x dpt plak last minute....
lame tauu tguu..berbulannn
emm nanges jup nangesss juppp
(seriously air mata kua tau!)
cmtue la agak nye perasan ibu
ngandung yg mengidam sesuatu tp x dpt..
tp bkn aku la preggy woman nyee...
andaian aku jeppp...huhu

hurmmm x ape laa...
nty kite beli snirikkkkk laa kann
tp x same la perasaan dgn org bg kite..
emm emm emmm emmmm
(muke da sedih tahap dewa)

kesimpulannya, jgn over excited on
something yg kite x tentu dpt g okayyyy

emm jumpe awak esokkkkkk

p/s: awak bace nie mesti kate kite sikit sikit tacing...tak tacing la awakkk kite terkilannn jepp :'(
kalau awak bace pun jgn ckp ngan kite awak bace tauuuuuu...nty kite xnk jumpe awak dahh

P.A.I.N

i'd tried to get rid of Mr.E from my journey life but this morning im realize that i cant..just cant...sakit nya rasa! kalau mcm nie tak kan i need to take pain killer everyday??tak nak tak nakkkk TAK NAK!

rindu tok pah..tokwan..walid...and teja ugakkk..sakit nya rasa rindu...nak balikkkkk..january 2014..please come faster...wanna go home...chinese new year meyh! confirm cuti pnjangggg...totally cant wait nak hug tokpahhh..

ermm almost 2 months have been employed as an assistant of quantity surveyor...kenkadang rase nk quit pasal stress keje dlm bidang construction..exhausted! duhaii hati...sabar lah sayanggg

yang penting skrg mmg rase sakit and rase nak bringg jep..how my day tmrw huu??hope every single thing would be okayy then..

time to sleep....lots of love...xoxo :'(

U.N.G.K.I.T

ungkit mengungkit nie kadang2 boleh jadi benda sensitif tahap petala ketujuh...
tapi bila da masuk bab arwah walid...
aku mmg tak terkata apa laa...
ape hak dia nk ckp aku cmtue..??
tawu la aku anak yatim dan sesungguh nya demi Allah aku tak percaya g dgn status aku tue..anak yatim..
rase cm kena hina je dia ckp cmtue...sedih..sedih sgt..
kadang2 rasa berdosa tak dpt terima hakikat yg satu Allah duga aku nie...
aku tak puas g ckp dgn walid!
nape ckp cmtue...kecik ati tauu...
aku x pnah pun ungkit kalau bab pasal status org or kuarge2 org nie...da mmg tue Allah bg...nak wat mcm mana??tak payah la nk up bgai...sedih tau..sedih!
satu hal plak dok nges pasal walid mlm jumaat nie...
nak msg ngadu kt no.fon walid la cmnie!
untung2 no.fon arwah walid reply msg aku mmg nitemare aku tydo mlm niee..hurmmmm

p/s: nak blik kg jumpe tok pahhh :'(

M.A.A.F

maaf mmg sng untuk diucapkan..
da buat salah then say sorry and tadaa everything will be normal again..wadahel??
ingat senang mcm tue ke org nak maafkan bila da buat salah even though salah tue ciput..kecik agy drpd kuman smpy x bpe nk nmpk salah tue..
tapiii...ade tapi agy kann??
kalau da kerap sgt buat mende kecik tue lelame mkn aty ugak laa...nak nak kita yg tggu cm org bodoh je...
at last sniri ugak yg mkn hati ulam jantung sume laa menangis bagai nak rak x ckup tydo bagai laa...
then esok just got a sorry msg from d person who make u feel like wanna throw away his head..
tooooo fucking pretty much!
did u think a sorry is enuf for me..???nope!!!
y u didnt give me a call at least..at least to say sorry cuz im deadly bored to get ur sorry msg again n again when u did something wrong..
totally im not happy with that...fullstop!
the conclusion, MAAF senang nak taip senang nak ucap tapi susah nak menghayati mksud maaf tue sniri...

speechless

kadang-kadang perhubungan jarak jauh nie,
mmg btol2 perlukan kesabaran...
tambahan lagi bila satu perhubungan,
da amik masa bertahun lama nya...
terasa bosan gak kadang2...
text tnya menda same gak,
stiap hari sampy x reti nk tnya apa dah..
bosan bukan bermakna hati x sayang...
jumpa sekali sekala jeles nie tgok org lain...
haiiii laaa....bersabar lah wahai hati....
tolong ikut arahan tuan kau ea..??

p/s : bila agak nya aku nk kawen nie..ekeke...bosan malam minggu!!!!

Heartache

hurmm ye la...
kadang2 dlm relationship nie mcm2 hal je boleh nk cari point utk keep fighting..
smgu skali tak cari pasal mmg x perfect kot life aku rase??tapiiiiiiii ade tapi agy kan!
lelaki x pnah nak faham...
nk kite org pmpuan je faham dy...

and sometimes rase cm loser bila dia ckp sesuatu yg buat kita terase ke ape...
da name pun perempuan..should be that way isnt it??
manje manje gedik...
marah-marah syg...normal right????

the saddest part isnt dat with each passing day i feel like i need u more...
but its da fact dat u dont need me at all..

sometimes we as a girl...women..she or her...
love to keep texting their hubby just sebab nk rase dekat selalu....why so hard utk relationship jarak jauh nie??

btol ckp farah a.k.a my beloved cousin, sometimes single is better than two...

her favourite question ; "macam mana kau boleh stay more than 4 and half year dengan dia..??"...

my perfect lovely answer : bigger smile on my face...dats it!

i've no idea to answer even though shes keep asking me the same question...i just have big NO answer...

her relationship i think good enuf but shes dont think like i am...why??probably shes get boring on it..3 years relationship...

then if u..u..and u get d answer for THAT question..
just let me know bcoz i couldnt get the answer and im start to feel boring on this love story...heaven!!

i keep feel that way when i get mad to him..BORED!

why u didnt inform me dat u got something to do and bla bla bla so that i'll not waiting and keep starring on my phone just to get your silly message !
susah sgt ke nk buat!! 

p/s : just because kerajaan da tak ada money or what so ever and hold for my medicine approval i need to face it! cuma jgn stress so that i can continue my daily life mcm biase even rase x selesa...if i've given two choices between the medicine and him, i think i rather choose dat medicine perhaps! u make me sick honey..perfectly!  my silence is just another word for my pain coz im missing you..i hope u read this :'(

G.R.A.D.U.A.T.I.O.N

halo halo haloooo

just nak bagi tahu kita dah graduate lah !

walau tok wan tak ikut ( tokwan semput pulakkk pagi tuh ! )

tapi semua berjalan dengan lancar...

boringgg dok dlm dewan lelame ! naseb naek pentas jumpa anak Tan Sri Dr.Mahathir..

tak dpt jumpa ayah dapat jumpa anak pun kire ok laaaa

idola saya tue ! hihi

alhamdulillah...

dapat Diploma in Quantity Surveyor !

any vacancies for me...please ? ;)

diploma utk tok pah..tok wan...arwah walid..dan mama !

love you olssss

p/s : 

even walid tak ada dan terasa sedih tak dapat share semua ini...

tapi kena kuatkan hati dan tabah..

even baru jumpa andy teja..

hati masih terasa rindu...weeee

Movie marathon

Nie entry  pasal cter smlm...
1st time ever tgok movie 3 cter non stop..
Is it consider bla bla bla watch this 3 movie...ALONE?
Tapi best la tgok movie sorang2...
Smpy staff kaunter tiket da pndg semacam..
Dok ulang beli tiket..
Eh..suka hati la duit kita kannn...heee

The mortal instrument was great..
the conjuring totally give me the heart attack even cter dy xde la seram mane..*berlagaknya*
And the elysium give me the future that will never exist..walau cter dy agak mengarot...tp besh...

Tue je laa...byee

P/s: konvo next week..masing2 xnak mengalah kan??finee...aku g sniri laa cmtue...payah sgt! Ehh kat mane nak cari striping honda icon yg boleh design sniri?finally minnie mouse aku da tanggal kan pasal sume ckp x matang??what da heck is it huu?? =_=

MIMPI

Hurmm hampir dua bulan...
Bru smlm kedatangan pertama Walid@ayah saya dlm mimpi...
Rindu nye saya kat arwah Allah je yg tahu..
Alahaiii...doa je la yg mampu saya beri...
Semoga roh walid tenang dan dicucuri rahmat di sana..
Bnyk juga manusia yg aku rindu muncul dlm mmpi smlm..
Harap2 walid muncul lagi..
Hantar msg kat no.walid x delivered punn...rindu nk msg cerita mcm2..
hurmmm rinduuu :'(

P/s : dia marah aku call dia tadi pasal dia tgah tgok movie...bru semangat nak ckp SENTAP terus..nyesal call...wadahel?? ;(

KEHILANGAN

salam semua...

esok da mula bulan ramadhan...

harap semua dapat menjalankan ibadah puasa dengan sempurna kali ini yee...

lain la bagi kaum hawa di kecuali kan..hehe

bagi kaum adam bulan ni bulan terbaik utk anda semua melatih diri mengurangkan atau lebih baik stop la merokok bg yg merokok tu ye..

cerita tajuk kehilangan?

hari ini merupakan hari ke 5 walid a.k.a ayah saya pergi di jemput Ilahi (pergi meninggalkan kita pada 5 julai 2013 @ 3.32 pm)..

walaupun sedih, kehidupan harus diteruskan macam biasa...

sempat menjaga arwah di hospital selama 5 hari sehingga menghembuskan nafas terakhir depan saya...

semoga roh walid tenang dan dicucuri rahmat serta ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yg beriman...aminnnn

dikesempatan ini saya ucapkan selamat berpuasa kepada semua umat islam....

p/s : jangan lupa sahur ye !! :)

FLORIA 2013

this entry all about pictures at Floria Festival 2013 at Putrajaya last night !

 sangat bercahaya kannn ??
ouh ye lupe plak..x lupe gambar ifa raziah yg hot nyanyi dangdut...hihi
bersiul sahaja la abang-abang di belakang aku uhh...haishhhh

till we meet again yeaaa :)

p/s : sedar tak sedar kontrak keja aku tgal lagi sebulan lebih je..cepatnya masa berlalu da dekat stgah tahun duduk Key El !! looking forward for the next step..hope better offer waiting for me..aminnnn

segan nyerrrrr

tak pernah rase segan smpy nges..totally rase cm pelik lakk...ingt kan remove cover photo jep tp skali ngan default picture juga..i love dat DP da most! sobs sobs..sumpah segan bila kne delete for both pic actually till im speechless..so, this is the last lesson for me..hey guys! this post entry is regarding the facebook issue..FYI, saya tak marah cuma segan or lebih tepat malu..ouhhh mennn...im stuck for awhile !! TQ #sigh

LOST ?

hye !
totally dlm dilema..
seriously !
sometime bila dpt apa yg kita nak dr awal ade pula halangan..
okey...hope malam ni tydo,
dpt mmpi yg buley bg aku petunjuk laa
haish !

finally si kambeng da ptong rambut !
heeee

p/s :

kuatkan hati tabahkan minda kukuh kan diri ooo yeahh !
3 months more...lets fighting !