P.A.I.N

i'd tried to get rid of Mr.E from my journey life but this morning im realize that i cant..just cant...sakit nya rasa! kalau mcm nie tak kan i need to take pain killer everyday??tak nak tak nakkkk TAK NAK!

rindu tok pah..tokwan..walid...and teja ugakkk..sakit nya rasa rindu...nak balikkkkk..january 2014..please come faster...wanna go home...chinese new year meyh! confirm cuti pnjangggg...totally cant wait nak hug tokpahhh..

ermm almost 2 months have been employed as an assistant of quantity surveyor...kenkadang rase nk quit pasal stress keje dlm bidang construction..exhausted! duhaii hati...sabar lah sayanggg

yang penting skrg mmg rase sakit and rase nak bringg jep..how my day tmrw huu??hope every single thing would be okayy then..

time to sleep....lots of love...xoxo :'(

U.N.G.K.I.T

ungkit mengungkit nie kadang2 boleh jadi benda sensitif tahap petala ketujuh...
tapi bila da masuk bab arwah walid...
aku mmg tak terkata apa laa...
ape hak dia nk ckp aku cmtue..??
tawu la aku anak yatim dan sesungguh nya demi Allah aku tak percaya g dgn status aku tue..anak yatim..
rase cm kena hina je dia ckp cmtue...sedih..sedih sgt..
kadang2 rasa berdosa tak dpt terima hakikat yg satu Allah duga aku nie...
aku tak puas g ckp dgn walid!
nape ckp cmtue...kecik ati tauu...
aku x pnah pun ungkit kalau bab pasal status org or kuarge2 org nie...da mmg tue Allah bg...nak wat mcm mana??tak payah la nk up bgai...sedih tau..sedih!
satu hal plak dok nges pasal walid mlm jumaat nie...
nak msg ngadu kt no.fon walid la cmnie!
untung2 no.fon arwah walid reply msg aku mmg nitemare aku tydo mlm niee..hurmmmm

p/s: nak blik kg jumpe tok pahhh :'(

M.A.A.F

maaf mmg sng untuk diucapkan..
da buat salah then say sorry and tadaa everything will be normal again..wadahel??
ingat senang mcm tue ke org nak maafkan bila da buat salah even though salah tue ciput..kecik agy drpd kuman smpy x bpe nk nmpk salah tue..
tapiii...ade tapi agy kann??
kalau da kerap sgt buat mende kecik tue lelame mkn aty ugak laa...nak nak kita yg tggu cm org bodoh je...
at last sniri ugak yg mkn hati ulam jantung sume laa menangis bagai nak rak x ckup tydo bagai laa...
then esok just got a sorry msg from d person who make u feel like wanna throw away his head..
tooooo fucking pretty much!
did u think a sorry is enuf for me..???nope!!!
y u didnt give me a call at least..at least to say sorry cuz im deadly bored to get ur sorry msg again n again when u did something wrong..
totally im not happy with that...fullstop!
the conclusion, MAAF senang nak taip senang nak ucap tapi susah nak menghayati mksud maaf tue sniri...

speechless

kadang-kadang perhubungan jarak jauh nie,
mmg btol2 perlukan kesabaran...
tambahan lagi bila satu perhubungan,
da amik masa bertahun lama nya...
terasa bosan gak kadang2...
text tnya menda same gak,
stiap hari sampy x reti nk tnya apa dah..
bosan bukan bermakna hati x sayang...
jumpa sekali sekala jeles nie tgok org lain...
haiiii laaa....bersabar lah wahai hati....
tolong ikut arahan tuan kau ea..??

p/s : bila agak nya aku nk kawen nie..ekeke...bosan malam minggu!!!!

Heartache

hurmm ye la...
kadang2 dlm relationship nie mcm2 hal je boleh nk cari point utk keep fighting..
smgu skali tak cari pasal mmg x perfect kot life aku rase??tapiiiiiiii ade tapi agy kan!
lelaki x pnah nak faham...
nk kite org pmpuan je faham dy...

and sometimes rase cm loser bila dia ckp sesuatu yg buat kita terase ke ape...
da name pun perempuan..should be that way isnt it??
manje manje gedik...
marah-marah syg...normal right????

the saddest part isnt dat with each passing day i feel like i need u more...
but its da fact dat u dont need me at all..

sometimes we as a girl...women..she or her...
love to keep texting their hubby just sebab nk rase dekat selalu....why so hard utk relationship jarak jauh nie??

btol ckp farah a.k.a my beloved cousin, sometimes single is better than two...

her favourite question ; "macam mana kau boleh stay more than 4 and half year dengan dia..??"...

my perfect lovely answer : bigger smile on my face...dats it!

i've no idea to answer even though shes keep asking me the same question...i just have big NO answer...

her relationship i think good enuf but shes dont think like i am...why??probably shes get boring on it..3 years relationship...

then if u..u..and u get d answer for THAT question..
just let me know bcoz i couldnt get the answer and im start to feel boring on this love story...heaven!!

i keep feel that way when i get mad to him..BORED!

why u didnt inform me dat u got something to do and bla bla bla so that i'll not waiting and keep starring on my phone just to get your silly message !
susah sgt ke nk buat!! 

p/s : just because kerajaan da tak ada money or what so ever and hold for my medicine approval i need to face it! cuma jgn stress so that i can continue my daily life mcm biase even rase x selesa...if i've given two choices between the medicine and him, i think i rather choose dat medicine perhaps! u make me sick honey..perfectly!  my silence is just another word for my pain coz im missing you..i hope u read this :'(